Words Left Unspoken

When I turn away, time stands still

What hurts the most is that I know I’m never turning back around

It wouldn’t hurt so much to walk away if I didn’t know that you weren’t going to come after me

Gravity seems to be hard at work

Cause I can’t lift my foot to take a step forward

Instead my heart drags my mind backwards to the past

To all the memories of you and me

To the way it was supposed to be

The way it played in my dreams every single night

But I have to give it up now, I don’t have any more strength left to fight

I nearly drowned myself in the tears shed for you

And still, I’m alone in this bed made for two

But you know what they say, letting go is a form of love

So I guess everything has just come down to nothing

And it’s time for me to make that choice

But no matter what I say…

I hate you because I still love you

But I’m letting you go

Can’t hold on to invisible strings no more

I’m letting you go

Letting you go

It feels so strange to watch you through a window

I’m on the outside now

The smiles, the hugs, the kisses belong to another girl you found

I used to make you smile like that

Make your eyes sparkle like stars in the night sky

But baby, now it’s so dark out

And I have to force myself to sleep, whispering a lie

That I don’t need someone like you to be happy

Well, the thing is my happiness is the definition of you

So I guess it’s half the truth

Cause baby, I don’t have you no more

The future made of you and me

The way it is suppose to be

The way it’s played so many times in my head

The way it happens in those stupid fairy tales I read

I’m through crying tears for you

But seriously, there seems to be nothing else I can do

So what happened to the wings you gave me to fly

Cause now, I can’t even imagine ever seeing another blue sky

But it sucks cause no matter what I say…

I hate you because I still love you

But I’m gonna let you go

Cause it’s impossible to break up a heart that doesn’t exist as a whole no more

I’m letting you go

Letting you go

And I guess one day, someone’s gonna thank you for leaving me behind

But it ain’t coming through my mouth

They say love is letting go of fear

But nobody told me that it meant facing my own tears

But I just want you to know

That I’m never gonna forget…

You and me

How it’s supposed to be

How your reaching hands touched my heart

How you swore we’d never be apart

The broken promises you left for me to decipher

Wondering where I went wrong

All by myself…this broken love song

But now it’s time to be brave

And do something for me for once in my life

I’m letting you go

Letting you go…

By: Annie L.

It’s gonna storm tonight

You can feel the humidity in the air

The smell of moisture in every suffocating breath you take in

You deny it so many times, it’s useless…you’re scared

You hide in the corner, holding onto every last piece of yourself

Whatever you have a grip on because you know none of it will stay

You hold on tight or you’re afraid it’ll all wash away

But baby, I’m telling you…

When the rain comes down, you stand back up

When the lightning illuminates the sky, you can start to cry

When the thunder cracks the air, don’t be afraid

I’m never letting go of you.

When the streets flood with water, don’t back down

When you feel like you’re drifting under, just hold on to my hand. It’s all going to turn around.

When it feels like there’s no hope, hope even harder

I promise you…

I won’t let you drown

Listen now, the storm will stop.

You won’t slip away…not from me.

I’ll be here. Don’t listen to what they say.

There is always a brand new day

Clear skies and beaming sunshine

On your shoulders, it’ll come in time

I got you baby, so remember…

When the rain comes down, you stand your ground

When the lightning flashes in the sky, don’t be afraid to cry

When the thunder whips through the air, don’t fall into your fears

I’m never letting you go.

When the water rushes down the streets like an everlasting river, don’t let it pull you away

When you feel like you’re slipping, just look into my eyes and you’ll be okay

When it feels like everything you’ve ever known is falling apart, just hold on even tighter

I promise you…

I won’t let you drown

I can’t stop the rain from coming down

But I can be your umbrella

I can’t tell you to stop crying

But I can dry your tears

I can’t stop the pain

But I can be with you every step of the way

Don’t be afraid

I won’t let you down

I won’t let you drown

By: Annie L.

I watch you from the corner of the room

In silence, my heart pounding with every breath

Frozen

Every small smile never escapes my gaze

The brilliant sparkle of your eyes never go unnoticed

 Beauty

Do you know how painful it is?

To want what you absolutely may not have

To love even though you hate every second of it

To feel so obsessed, it frightens the hell out of you

Loving someone you can’t touch

So hard but it comes with so much ease

The world wouldn’t understand or accept this kind of love

It cannot be spoken.

It cannot be heard.

It will be shunned.

Love like this is forbidden. Is unwanted. Is untouchable. Is unreasonable.

Uncontrollable.

You think I want to love you?

This time there’s no one to blame for the pull from your heart that won’t let me go

Addiction

The way you laugh with everyone else but me

The way you speak to everyone else but me

Unnoticed

The way I’m different but I still don’t stand out enough for you

What do I have to do?

To what extreme?

I hate when I dream about you

I wish I never knew you but I know I would live a life of regret if I did

Confusion

When you cry, I want to hold you in my arms and promise you immunity from all pain

But my feelings are left inside to torture while all you see is a smile from me

Hidden

If you looked deep into my eyes, you might be able to decipher the want I feel for you

 Read my soul through my eyes like I do everyday to you

 Vulnerability

Loving someone you can’t touch

So difficult but it comes as easily as breathing

The world turns away from this kind of love

It cannot be revealed.

It cannot be shown.

It will be ripped apart. Torn into shreds.

Love like this is forbidden. Is unnecessary. Is unreversible. Is undeniable.

Uncontrollable.

I’ll never let you see.

This feeling inside of me.

I can only watch from afar

Everything I’ll ever want.

I’ll ever need.

I’ll never have.

You. 

By: Annie L. 

Those moments when it feels like no one understands you

It seems like there’s only one way to go and you can’t fight the wave

It’s pulling you under

Your life…your hopes…your dreams. It’s all about to cave

So what if I cry without a tear

So what if I lie so I don’t have to say goodbye

To save my heart from being broken

To hide myself from the open

Is that so wrong?

To feel so much there aren’t words to explain

To love somebody who’s forbidden to claim

So what if I want more than I can have

So what if you only see me laugh

Because to be without being

Would be like dying without living

When you want to shout out, to show the world the real you

You’re afraid of what they say, what they might do

So you close your mouth and speak without words

Hoping someone somewhere might hear you

So what if I try when I can’t try no more

So what if I can’t follow your dreams because I want my own

To hold my feelings inside

To smile when I want to cry

Is that so wrong?

To crave to be wanted when I’m not perfect

To fight for absolutely nothing worthwhile

So what if I die with empty pockets and a life without regret

So what if I surrender my individual soul to follow the lies of others

Because to be without being

Would be like dying without living

For once, let the world stop in motion

Time stands still so that all they can finally hear…

Is the silent tears of a heart

Is the lies revealed to put off goodbye

Is the emotions that had been too much

Is the love that no one could accept

Is the hope among the hopeless

Is the dream of a dreamer untouched

Is the bliss of the poor

Is the guidance of a hidden leader

And they will see…

To be without being

Would be like dying without living

~Annie L.